i have just embarked on a task far too big
when i probably should be revising
and which will take me far too long
but hopefully the sense of accomplishment i shall feel shall make up for that :)
i love how there are so many easy ways i could do this
but i choose the harder route
why cant americans say route properly?

dude my heads a mess
like all over the place
i cant concentrate my thoughts not even now
i barely know what i'm typing
and have to retype cause i keep making spelling mistakes and no sense
eurgh
i wish i didnt wish for what i wish
blahhhhhhhhh
i just want to go tescos haha
for 2 reasons
no 3
krispy kremes, cute ginger, a breaaaaaak from everything
i know tescos is a weird choice
but as my cousin established last night
i am weird :)
my attitude towards certain family memebers have changed
cause i've changed
and its good
but i havent changed
i'm just more myself
or am i =/
what am I exactly? that shy girl in the corner i used to be? hmmmm or is it all just a part of me really
WHERE DID THAT COME FROM
woahhhhhh i need to go

me: "ewww get off me with your sweaty hands"
cousin: "they're not sweaty they're moist"

hahahahahahaha



ha

today was pleasant :)

with a european theme i swear

i felt like i was in another country! haha

ohhhh i dont know what to write my mind is too full to make sense of

maybe next tiiime

duuuudes
i had this thing i wanted to write about that i've been stewing over in my head
but i dunno how to word it anymore :S
i used up all my writing skills in english lit exam today sorry!
maybe next time haha
i cant wait to get my scrapbook

new painting :)

with my new symbol i'm putting on all my stuff now in the bottom right hand corner wheyyy

original supertwigg picture

eurgh i've been on the phone to local soliciters for hours asking about work experience
either they're all booked
dont offer it
or "will get back to me"
duuuude
i dont even want to go into law wtf!
hmmm i might try accountants or photographers later
i dunnoooooo
if i still cant find anything
helllooooooo tescos? lol!
hmmm nahhhhh

anywho now to start english revision

oh and i've had two ideas in the shower this morning lol
which i'm very excited about :) yeyyyy

i cant seem to concentrate on anything right now
and i need to
fuck i cant even be bothered to do this

i know this is two blogs in one day
but fucking deal with it ;)
i cant believe i have barely needed to do any revision
i fucking know this shit
i hope
anywho
so i decided to straighten my hair cause i havent in ages so i thought
MIGHT ASWELL
and duuuuude i havent realised how fucking long its got!
its probably about 15cm shorter than my waist
its not been this long in a LOOONG time
i had to tie it back now though cause it was making my neck warm
its like a neck blanket
hahahahaha
anywho back to the point
right normally i'm like fuck i wish i could cut my hair
and the reason i dont is cause my dad like's it long and yes i'm a parent pleaser haha
well i have to some ways seeing as i lie to them now and again eeeppp
anywho well yeah i was just thinking
i'm kind of proud of my how long my hair is and i want to keep it long
i dunno its just different i guess
so yeah i dunno why all that matters but it does to me so deal with it
anywhooo i've just been taking pictures...of myself
no i'm not vaiiin!
and no they're not myspace pics
i dont have myspace hahaha! i just wanted something to edit
and i think its amazing what you can do to pictures even if you dont have photoshop
all i've eddited is like brightness saturation colour temperature and stuff and this is what i got

i hatew the fact i'm in the pictures lol but i like some of the effects

comment me

no one barely ever comments me :) lol

and you can be anonymous noww!

i hate how this is taking so long to print
right now i hate how my mind wont rest
i want to sit in the front
with the windows wide open
blast some good music
and revise
which is what i shall be doing
soon as all this has finished printing
i desperately want to be alone
but i wish someone good was here

my printer is running out of ink
i still have about 20 pages to print
meh i can get that down to about 3 i think
cause i'm a genious ;)
also cause i already have most of these pages
i'm just wasting time

i've been thinking about old friends
the ones i was so close to only a few years ago
and who i havent heard from in years
its weird to think at one time i had kind of two different identities
3 even
not necessarily that i am totally different with different groups of friends
but it is kind of different
a nice different
but i dont want that back
i want something new
something i've never had before
but i dont really think will ever happen
hmmm
ohwell

by the way i'm allowing all comments now
even anonymous ones
i'm sick of the past
i want the future

i had my first gcse exam today
and unlike some others
it went well
to be honest i'm just gonna say it
reallly well
considering this is my second to hardest one
bring on the rest :)
in other news
today was some people's last days
many cried
it was awkward
i need to learn to deal with that kind of emotion =/

its weird
i give advice as if i know all the answers
as if i am this wise motherfucker who knows everything and has been through everything and now has this amazing life
but actually its just as fucked up as everyone else
but you know what i'll carry on not speaking from experience just in some hope that somehow i'll talk some sense
and someone might benifit from something i say
maybe, just maybe

everytime i go to put in http://www.blogspot.com/

i always but http://www.blogspto.com/ :S weirrrd

its like how i cant spell recly arghhhh reclycling on a computer :S

i always go reclycling =/



something made me smile abit ago but i cant remember what

i almost got run over by a car today, seriously the bonnet hit my legs

hmmmm



today has not been good

tomorrow be better



the weather is lovely though ^^

let it be like this in summer



i want fun days out- alton towers yes?

hopefully :)

beach anyone? tell me you want to come and i'll organise it yerrrr

wow when i was signing in and the names of blogs come on that have recently been added to or something like that
"gujerati club" came on! haha i was about to click on it but i was too late and it dissappeared :(
i must find it again
dude its a 3 day weekend :)
cept i'm spending it most probably learning a fuck load of german for my german oral (the speaking kind) on tuesday =/
hahahaha my mum's come home with my aunt's shoes cause they have the same ones :')
ermmm reet well lets see
somethings affected me that i wish wouldnt and didnt actually think would anymore so thats kind of annoying =/
dont ask me what it is i'm not likely to say
worst thing is i feel like such a dick for even letting it bother me =/
i'm just glad that some things stop other stuff affecting me
arghhh i barely know wtf i'm saying now =/
i think i'm just having a confusing night
but all in all besides a few things today has been quite light hearted and a laugh so thats good :)
theres now 5 more school days before my first exam =/ fucking hell. which HAS to be on the last day =
just hoping this week is gonna be full of laughs and fun
*fingers crossed* :)

i was asked to write something to put in my friend's book she was making
this is what i wrote (in about a minute so sorry if its crap!)


Life is about pushing the limits
And no one will leave it without scars
The key is not to hide them under clothing, attitudes and lies
But to bear them for all to see
So that they can see even after all that
You learnt, you succeeded.
We fear rejection and so do not gain acceptance
Fight for what you believe in - freedom fighter or terrorist?
Don’t move forwards, don’t move backwards
It’s time to explore every direction
The box doesn’t exist…