titles are restrictive to the rest of the text

to label something is to give it a name, an identity
someones property
controlled

full stops imply the end
no more
controlled

patterns imply continuity and predictability
so lets stop this now eh?

whatever one person thinks has probably already been thought of a million times over
whatever one person does has probably already been done a million times over
and yet we are ashamed
we lie
we conceal the truth
why?
sure to be enlightened is to accept yourself and reveal all
to no longer feel shame
if so then who is enlightened? anyone?
....anyone at all?

if people accepted themselves would they walk around naked?
wouldnt some wear clothes purely because they liked clothes?
would we all accept that we were the same, equal
or that we are all individuals and can act differently?

or is enlightenment your total acceptance of God, religion and how it tells you to live?

whatever problem you have theres someone who has a problem worse than you
so whats the bottom?
surely its got to be something
cancer?
hunger?
poverty?
what is the worst problem in the world?

numbers are amazing
they are infinite
they have no beginning and they have no end


i've been reading fight club and i remembered this:
primary year 6
and i cant even remember how it started
but me and cheral who i considered my best friend fought
we went at each other as hard as we could
children around us chanting "fight fight fight!"
adrenaline spurring us on
neither of us wanted to give in
i remember feeling elated
it felt like i was letting go
i was hurtling towards freedom
and somehow we just collectively stopped
hugged
and that was that
life continued as normal
i've never forgotten that
and so often i just wish to be back there
letting go
with no fear of change or consequence afterwards

procrastination(i think thats how you spell it :S)

its been a long time since i've posted on here
and i choose the time i'm meant to be doing artwork to do it :)
typical lol
theres not even much i want to write at the moment
its just a way to pass the time i guess
hmmm the amount of food adverts on tv ALWAYS makes me hungry :S
i have doritos somewhere :)
yeahhhh
life is abit meh at the moment
i feel like i'm missing out on something its weird :S
and that i havent talked to so many people in so long
hmmmmmmm
i need to post something
soon

gcse's officially begin

got my art question paper on friday
and i know that i have to work hard and concentrate this time
cause its the real thing
not only for others but for myself too :)

AND i have been doing quite well ^^
got some really good ideas
know what i want to do
shall discuss it tomorrow with the kidd
and hopefully she'll like it :)
i'm so focused on it all for once
that i had ideas come in my dreams :S
but i can only remember one oops lol

one thing i dont often do is remember my dreams
which is a bit of a shame cause the ones i have remembered are always really weird and interesting
its great haha

it snowed yesterday!
and melted by like half 11 pffffft
ohwell still snowed lol
reminded me of the last time it snowed and i called round chez and we had a snowball fight in my court haha ^^ good times
and instead of building a snow man we built a snow dead sheep =D lmao
and one of us didnt have any gloves cant remember who :S lol so we each had one glove on ^^
and then chavs tried to terrorise us and hit us with snowballs
but every one of them missed :P that was a good moment lol!
awhhh i miss that day ^^

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