the worst feeling is being lonely
even when theres so many people around

you know those days where you barely speak a few words now and then
but your thinking and daydreaming essays of stuff

and you just want to talk to someone
feel noticed, wanted, and all those other stupid feelings
we're not meant to be alone on this earth right?

i think about approaching someone
calling anyone and sorting something out
go somewhere have an amazing time and forget everything negative
but i camt
cause i dont know whether they'd truly want me around or not
and to be honest the latter seems highly more likely right now with everyone

whoever, if anyone in fact, reads this
dont bother trying to care
cause its gonna be out of sympathy and you know it no matter how much you try to deny that
and thats seriously the last thing i want

i have so much to say, but i cant
cause i cant spill out everything on some website thats not how it works
or over some so called "conversation" on myspace
its just not real enough anymore

i'm gonna try and make tomorrow different
i dont want to spend it in this fucking shithole anylonger
even if it means just escaping on my own walking till theres nowhere else to go
least its something

this blog is so stupid