return of normality

in so many different ways

even i cant begin to understand it all

exams are still going on
my head is filled with useless knowledge that most likely wont be tested on
and i wont need much of it after this year
and theres still so much i need to cram in it!

in other news
my parents are back
and i am quite glad
as much as i love being alone and the fact i'm not all that close to my rents
that small sense of security and relief of that bit of pressure when theres someone to look after you is always nice :)

this time last year was so hectic and so much happened
gosh that was a difficult time
and even though i try to tell myself all that is in the past
i am still getting those similar feelings
those warning signs that i'm all too farmiliar with
but hopefully will all amount to nothing
i seriously hope so

hmmm what else is going on
i feel as if theres something amiss
like there are so many things i could be doing but for some reason or another i cant do them
i really cant wait for these exams to be over
to just be able to do stuff and not have to worry about time to revise and all that
i'm gonna miss being on exam leave though!
coming home early going in late only going in for like an hour or even less its brilliant!
why cant it be like this all the time?
i prefer everyday being different
one thing i'm really not keen on is routine
that and planning
i like things to be spontanious or just different
keeps life interesting :)

yesterday my cousin said something to me that just really got me thinking
"only boring people get bored" and its true
if you are bored and unhappy with a situation its up toyou and you alone to get yourself out of that state of mind
i've always felt the need to kind of live by that theory and i think i do ok :)
hopefully this year i'll be even better at living that way

*welsh accent* brilliant